Are you wondering or wandering?

Have you ever felt like you needed to do something? No, I don't mean like, "I really need to give the kids a bath. The dog doesn't want his food anymore because the are wearing so many layers of spilt food, he gets plenty to eats. Its a lot like a food truck for him." No, I mean like really compelled to get up and move.

This morning after my quiet time, I was an emotional mess. Today marks 21 years since Anthony asked me out on our first date. I had just moved back from another state, with a one and half year old toddler, trying to straighten up my big girl pantiwears from a horrible marriage and divorce. I mean literally just moved back. Rolled up into town with my pull along storage on wheels (which feels about the size of a little red wagon when you start loading it) on Thursday, spent Friday at my parents and rented a duplex on Saturday. Which brings us to that Sunday morning. All I wanted was to go to church, swing by my parents house and go shopping in their pantry (much cheaper than the grocery), and go back to the duplex and start unpacking. Of course, God had different plans. And when God nudges you, He intends for you to move.

Today has been the perfect example. When I am closest to God and deepest with my trust in God, that is when Satan works his hardest. Goodness, was he trying this morning. But every time, God had nudged me in a direction or action to cut the evil one off. It is truly exhausting my mind being in the middle of this ongoing warfare, yet it is such a (there aren't words to describe it) thing to know that God is directing my path, every minute of the day.

When I finished with my quiet time this morning I wanted to do absolutely nothing today. But I felt that nudge to get up and shower. OK. Dressed and ready to nap. Not so fast, instead I felt lead to get on the treadmill (really?). When I started I thought I'd listen to Christmas music to help my spirts but soon decided on watching the Nativity story. The one I was able to find was much like a documentary. And was so fascinating. There were so many things that I rediscovered from bible college, and new information as well.

Everyone is so excited talking about seeing the "Christmas Star" coming up on December 21, when Jupiter and Saturn line up with Earth "in their respective orbits". This hasn't happened since 1623, and not when it was visible in the night sky since 1226. It is being called the "Great Conjuncture" because it is occurring on the first day of winter. Solstice is the longest night of the year. But what people don't realize is that it happened in 7BC. Big deal, right? Wrong. Historians has proven that King Herod died in 4BC. And in a little town of Bethlehem Jesus was born approximately three years earlier: 7BC. The "Christmas Star" that we will see in two days is the same "Christmas Star" that led the wandering Magi to Jesus. I pray that in this season of COVID and political unrest, that the Solstice "Christmas Star" will also lead even more wanderers to Jesus.